I met with Psychologist today and she asked me, “If you do not get any better than where you are now, can you make peace with being in chronic pain?”
The honest answer is I don’t think I can.
The things I have planned for my future are demanding and will be very stressful and the thought of taking all that on in addition to having this pain is terrifying. I worry that I won’t be able to handle it or that I will fail.
I want a life that is pain free. Or at least one that is close to pain free. I don’t even know what that would feel like anymore. And I may need to start really preparing myself for the fact that I might never get there.